ABOUT ME
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Hey there! I'm Jessica! 18 year old, baker, weight lifter, medical fanatic, and lover of life. I love deep thoughts, bubbles, dutch bros. coffee, and worship sessions in the car.
I love life because I know what it's like to not love it. I know what it's like to only see and focus on the hard and bad things in life, and because I've been through that, I'm able to see the good things, better now.
'When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.' ~Isaiah 43:2
I've been raised in a Christian home since I was born, and have been taught all there is to know about my Lord and Savior, and while my faith is up and down in my daily life, I still fully believe that He is real, and died to save me from my sins.
I started struggling with depression when I was fourteen. I never told anyone, because I was afraid that no one would pay attention to it, brush it off as something that wasn't a huge deal, and I didn't want to deal with that hurt. It wasn't until a friend of mine heard a slip up that I made when talking about hard things, that I finally told her what was going on. After I told her, things got a little better. I started to get better.
But after a while, things got worse. Suicide started to become the answer that I longed for. I wanted to stop feeling the hurt, but I wasn't strong enough to actually do it.
2020 was the year I was almost certain was when things would break. When I would finally bite the bullet and do it...
But God said 'no', and sent along my mom, like the good mom she is. She caught on that something was wrong, and made me spill. I finally told her about all of the hurt I had, and she helped me through that day. I've also opened up to my best friend, and he has helped me so much, also.
God knew what I was going through. He saw my struggles, He saw my fear, and He knew exactly what I needed, and He sent what I needed to save me, and I will work on getting better.
Now that you know my story, maybe you'll see why I want to help other people. I want to help them as they deal with depression. I want to help them as they deal with the pressure of school, or peer pressure. I want to help them learn to step into the life as an adult as I have been doing. I want to be a listening ear for anyone who needs it. I hope that this blog about anything life might help you in someway, and please, feel free to contact me and ask for my thoughts on things, for a specific post, for advice, anything. :)